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There is a god.
It is yourself.
You make the decisions.
You ultimately decide what is right, and what is wrong.
You are a product of your decisions, your reactions to others choices, and luck.
You deserve credit for what you have done.
Be your own god.

— 2 months ago
"I’m blasting my music so I won’t hear my thoughts, but the lyrics just remind me of what I’m trying to forget."
— 6 months ago with 2292 notes

Melissa Riso x Ryan Astamendi.


Melissa Riso x Ryan Astamendi.

— 6 months ago with 653 notes


I cant tell which one looks more confident

(via good-nightstarshine)

— 6 months ago with 294430 notes
Been a while.

I haven’t been very active on tumblr recently. School has a way of getting between things. Anyways, just wanted to do a little self-update, for anyone who cares.

Lets start with school. I can’t help but feel like a drone when it comes to school. Like I know its for a better future, but sometimes I just hate it so much, and I dont feel like its where my heart is. I love computer science, but not when all of the assignments are, “do that, this way, exactly my way, or else you fail.” where is the critical thinking in that? You’re not teaching kids how to be problem solvers, you’re teaching them how to be cookie cutter copies of each other. But ill stick it out. Because I know its for the best.

Next is my girlfriend. Her name is Lupe, and she is amazing. She is one of the only people who can make me genuinely happy. I couldn’t ask for more from her. She’s awesome.

Next is music. Im always flustered between making metal or acoustic music. I hear these awesome bands, and im like wow, this sounds so unique, so different, so awesome. And it makes me want to make metal. So I make it. Im always tinkering with different sounds and mixtures. But what’s the fucking point when you dont have a band? Im creating this music, that I compose, but could not play live because I dont have others to share the music with. Although I love metal, I’ve decided its in my best interest to put the majority of my focus in acoustic music. This is really scary for me, because acoustic music is one of the rawest forms of recording you can get. Theoretically, a voice and a guitar. So it will be a challenge, but hopefully I can improve my singing with it. I will be releasing an EP soon, and the only reason im telling people is because then I feel obligated to do it. I can’t push it off. So be expecting some music from your homie. :)

Good night. :)

— 7 months ago with 1 note